Hi...

The video was uploaded by me last year but I didn't really share it out yet until now, was just playing with my camera that time.
I had been feeling down and shitty ever since I started college in April 2012. The fact that I am a complete failure in the first semester, I have so many other problems as well. I think I have some serious mental issue about what other people look or judge on me, I have this scumbag brain which will always tell me statement that it might be or might not be true. Am I a bad person? Am I too proud or am I too quiet? I tried, I tried my best to change myself, but I just can't, I never do things right. As usual, a failure. I just realized that no matter what I do, I will never never be one of them, many of them. I feel so lonely and it will stay like this until the day I finally know what is my purpose to be down here.